I will not smoke weed instead of do anything

I have a problem. 

I am not addicted to drugs and alcohol. 

This prevents me from living a successful life and from being happy. 

I would like to get help from my friends and my family in removing this problem from my life.  I realize I have a lot of potential. 

By reading this right now you are helping me. 

It’s not and never was a secret. 

It’s what they make you say until you finally understand the association. 

I am not associated with liquor stores, drug dealers, and marijuana. 

I am not associated with drug addicts and drunks. 

But it doesn’t have to be this way. 

By writing this now I will be able to re-read it with an open mind.  

I guess that makes this part of the solution.  

I will not smoke weed instead of do anything. 

I will turn down a beer because I want to drink it. 

I have never done acid, coke, heroin, opium, ecstasy, mushrooms, nitrous, molly, oxycontin, roxycontin, percocet, vicodin, valium, adderall, caffeine, taurine, alcohol, tobacco, and marijuana. 

I think I’ve tried less than enough. 

I need to find help for myself. 

I need to grow up and transform. 

I need to change my lifestyle. 

How do I change my lifestyle? 

I am not Barack Obama. 

I am not going to graduate from college. 

I am going to run out of money. 

I am going to lose my girlfriend. 

I am going to get into arguments with my parents. 

I must not be willing to perpetuate this cycle of depression. 

I must return to natural human emotional expression. 

I must realize the unreality of my situation. 

I must acknowledge the damage I have done. 

I have to not want anymore. 

Please just let me not want anymore. 

I must learn to not be like this.